Chase The Shadows

hope, the meaning behind By February 18, 2018 11 Comments

God is good,

God is love,

I learned these truths when I was little.

 

His light surrounds me,

He watches over me,

I felt His presence from a young age.

 

I wanted to be good.

I wanted to please the God of the Universe.

I wanted to deserve His love.

 

 

So, I worked hard,

And tried to be good.

I felt his light behind me, like sun on my shoulders.

But shadows stretched out before me,

dark shadows as far as I could see.

 

So, I worked harder,

I tried to be better.

His light was always behind me,

His presence was always with me,

But the shadows were always before me,

dark shadows as far as I could see.

 

I worked even harder,

I tried to be better, perfect even.

Day by day the weight on my shoulders grew heavier,

My back and legs grew tired,

My heart was weary and sad.

No matter what I did, it was never enough.

I could never overcome the shadows,

dark shadows as far as I could see.

 

In desperation, I dropped to my knees,

buried my face in my hands and wept.

As tears rolled down my face I felt the warmth of God’s light behind me.

I cried with desperation,

“I’m sorry God.

I tried so hard.

I wanted to be good.

I wanted to deserve your love.

But I could never overcome the shadows.”

 

I felt Him gently touch my shoulder.

With empty hands and a broken heart,

I turned around,

I turned toward God.

His warm light overwhelmed me.

The glow of His goodness filled me with peace.

His love consumed me.

 

As I turned toward God there were no shadows, only light.

 

He whispered to me,

“You don’t have to work harder.

You don’t have to be good enough.

You don’t have to do it on your own.

I love you.

I have always loved you.

I am enough for you.

I have always been enough for you.

Turn toward me with empty hands and a broken heart.

You will find what you need right here.

I will surround you with my goodness and protection.

I will fill you with my love.

I will shine my light and chase the shadows away.

 

There will be no more shadows, only light as far as you can see.”


I’ve been thinking about Light and Grace these days. The Sunburst Diamond Ring captures light and hope with its handcrafted design.

Click here to see details. 

 

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hello thrifted baskets

hello monday, thrifting By February 12, 2018 3 Comments

Last week I hit the basket jackpot at our local Goodwill. So fun! I’m planning to put a bunch of flatter ones together in a wall collage at our office. Thrift stores are so addictive–I never know what I’m going to find.

How about some hellos for a brand new week?

Hello treasure trove of woven baskets in all shapes and sizes.

Hello mouse in our house. We did not invite him in and now he won’t leave.

Hello Valentine’s Day! We are going on a date night 2/15, that way we won’t have to fight the crowds. Do you have plans?

Hello busy busy David with unending energy and silliness. It’s been so fun and also exhausting! By 7:30 I’m ready to put him to bed.

Hello using my Instant pot more. A good friend shared this recipe with me and it’s delicious! *Note* I didn’t marinate the chicken overnight and I used boneless thighs instead of whole chickens. I set the instant pot timer for 6 minutes. It was tender and flavorful!

Hello taking Matthias to practice for the musical he’s in. He’s loving it. So fun.

Hello reading this memoir. It’s beautifully written and a fascinating story.

Hello Monday off school {for David}. We’ll take it slow today.

Hello finishing a big project and exhaling. I can’t wait to share more with you!

Hello to you! What are you saying hello to this week?

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hello helping

hello monday By February 5, 2018 3 Comments

Our English cousins visited over Christmas. It was such a wonderful time of being together; exploring and relaxing. The kids all get along pretty darn well. Pictured below is Phoebe who really, really wanted to help take care of David. One morning she wanted to feed him breakfast, so I got the food ready, gave her a quick lesson and she went for it.

Phoebe was very careful and attentive and David was very patient. Food got everywhere, it was messy, but also, such a sweet, tender moment. Phoebe is five years old and David is fifteen. Even with the large age gap, she can do what he can’t–and it’s heartbreakingly beautiful. I felt a mix of joy and sadness watching them together. But mostly I felt love–Phoebe’s love and acceptance toward David. She looks past his disability and loves him just as he is.

It made me wonder how many times I don’t accept help, even when I need it. Helping someone else and accepting help means we meet each other in our brokenness. Isn’t that a beautiful thing?

How about some hellos for a brand new week?

Hello taking time to notice other’s needs. In my busyness it’s so easy to rush through my day.

Hello accepting help from others. It’s easier for me to offer help than accept it. Deep down I think accepting help feels like weakness–which is so untrue. We need each other.

Hello reading this book. So good–and she was 17 when she wrote it!

Hello Christmas planning already! There is fun stuff ahead.

Hello Mom 2.0. Are you going? I’ll be there.

Hello overalls. Aren’t these cute?

Hello watching this series on Netflix. It’s kinda creepy but so good. If you liked Stranger Things, you’ll like this.

Hello fighting a migraine the last few days. So yuck. Thankfully it’s low level.

Hello meetings and email and projects this week.

Hello blogging. It’s been a few weeks. Feels good to get back into a rhythm.

Hello to you! What are you saying hello to this week?

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hello happy birthday

hello monday By January 15, 2018 6 Comments

Today Matthias is saying ‘hello’ to fourteen! I can’t believe my baby is fourteen–feels like a lot of years and a short amount of time. I’ve heard a rumor next year he’ll turn fifteen. Next year is high school! So exciting and crazy and to be honest, my mama heart gets pulled between missing my babies and delighting in watching my boys grow. Life is a funny, beautiful thing. How about some hellos?

Hello feeling victorious because we finally got our Christmas tree down. It’s not even February yet!

Hello father and son who are so much alike–passionate, creative, hard-working, deep feelers.

Hello three guys who fill up my heart.

Hello new year full of big things ahead.

Hello Matthias, happy birthday!!!

Hello celebrating with dinner and a movie with friends, a few gifts and cupcakes.

Hello to you! What are you saying hello to this week?

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hello counting down!

hello monday By December 12, 2017 13 Comments

I cannot believe it’s mid-December. The days are flying by and Christmas is right around the corner! We are busy busy around here and I find myself feeling a bit panicky at moments. But it will all come together. I know for sure getting stressed never helps. It always makes it worse! deep breath, it’s all good.

How about some hellos for a new week?

Hello taking pics with this incredible photographer {and friend!}. Heather you are so talented.

Hello fires in Los Angeles and Ventura. We are a couple hours north of the fires–out of harms way but close enough to experience the smoke and know our neighbors are in crisis. Lots of thoughts and prayers for California.

Hello cleaning out drawers and closets.

Hello watching less TV and spending more time reading.

Hello Christmas tree with twinkly lights but no ornaments {yet!}.

Hello last minute Christmas gifts. These handmade items ship FAST.

Hello feeling like a homebody lately–I never want to leave the house.

Hello celebrating David who has been healthy for 8 weeks straight!!

Hello planning Matthias’ birthday which always seems to get lost in the Christmas shuffle.

Hello making lists and rushing–then feeling exhausted.

Hello walking and writing and thinking and nurturing my soul.

Hello napping and resting and being instead of doing.

Hello to YOU. It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found. What are you saying hello to this week?

 

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Hello December

hello monday By December 4, 2017 5 Comments

December is here! Hello! With the business, we are preparing for this season all year long. In fact, we are already preparing for NEXT Christmas. Crazy, right?! So now that December is finally here it feels a bit surreal. I want to slow down and soak it all up.

How about some hellos for a new week?

Hello smiles. David loves it when his dad sings to him. Big smiles.

Hello open doors. The weather has been lovely, so we’ve been opening our French doors and enjoying breakfast with lots of fresh air. Just one small problem–flies. inevitably a few find their way into the house and drive us nuts later in the day.

Hello white tree. The boys are trying to talk me into taking down the white tree and replacing it with a real tree. I really love our white tree though!

Hello lights around the kitchen window. This has got to be the easiest decor in the world–but it makes me so happy.

Hello brothers. It melts my heart to see them together. I see Matthias being more in tune with David lately.

Hello week of worry. I’ve have felt so out of sorts this week–overwhelmed and exhausted. I feel like I can’t pull it together.

Hello preparing for family to visit this Christmas. We can’t wait!

Hello reading this book and loving it.

Hello Christmas shopping. I think I’m about 2/3 done. How about you?

Hello family pics this week. Preparing for a photo shoot is always a bit stressful. The best thing is to relax about it, right?

Hello brand new week with beauty to be found. What are you saying hello to this week?

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Hello Thankful

hello monday By November 26, 2017 5 Comments

Hello friends! We had a very wonderful Thanksgiving this year. Lots of delicious food, time with family and time to rest. That’s a perfect formula for a good holiday, I think!

How about some hellos and thankfulness for a new week?

Hello thankful for a new aqua door. It’s bright and happy!

Hello thankful for my two boys are our two pups and lots and lots of love and snuggles.

Hello thankful Rosie the pup is mending well after a pit bull attack. She’s getting stronger and braver every day.

Hello thankful for lots of delicious food. We went out for a big breakfast at the Madonna Inn, then snacked for lunch {above} and a big Thanksgiving dinner.

Hello thankful for a table where we can linger and talk and laugh.

Hello thankful for silliness and pictures that capture a little of the crazy.

Hello thankful for a successful first pie. Yum!

Hello thankful for a little down time to rest. Naps are the best.

Hello thankful for a season of health. David is back to the doctor today for a checkup. He’s been happy and healthy the five weeks {after four bouts of pneumonia in five months!}

Hello thankful to be loved just as I am, right now. And even more, I’m learning to feel that love and acceptance deep in my soul.

Hello thankful for you! What are you saying hello to this week?

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hello boys bathroom redo

hello monday By November 12, 2017 11 Comments

Hello friends!

We are in our busy season–it’s here! I look at my calendar and can’t believe Christmas is six weeks away. Crazy!! We have been updating our bathroom and the boys’ bathroom is finally done. I love the way it came together.

How about some hellos for a new week?

Hello BLUE vanity. We painted the old vanity and added hardware. Blue felt risky to me–but it’s the boys’ bath and I wanted it to feel masculine. I love the way it came together.

Hello vintage rug that ties in the wood shelf and the darker vanity. It’s a little funky but I like the mix of patterns.

Hello cement tile floor. This was top of my wish list and the tiles took forever to come in. I’m so glad we waited though.

Hello attending a conference this week. I hope I come away stretched and inspired.

Hello reading this book–I’m just starting it. I’ve heard such good things. Have you read it?

Hello headaches. I’ve been fighting them lately and it’s awful. I think it’s stress. Do you get headaches?

Hello busy busy in the workshop. We have such an incredible team–I am grateful for them!

Hello new leather bags designed by my sweetie Stephen David Leonard. They are AMAZING!

Hello menu planning for Thanksgiving. I want to keep it simple but yummy.

Hello to you. It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found. What are you saying hello to this week?

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hello to you

hello monday By October 30, 2017 7 Comments

Hello friends. We are thankful to be waking up to a new week. Last week was full–with good and hard stuff. Aren’t new beginnings a beautiful thing? How about some hellos for a new week?

Hello pups. My MIL last one of her precious dogs to a pit bull attack last week. Her other pup was badly injured. It is so heartbreaking. I’m still reeling from it. Our pets truly become part of our families, don’t you think?

Hello visiting the dentist this week. I am overdue.

Hello HUGE announcement. Steve has been working on this project for a while and it’s finally out in the real world. The response has been amazing–which doesn’t surprise me because his designs are incredible. Hop over and check it out.

Hello chilly weather and pulling out sweaters FINALLY!

Hello Halloween. We don’t have plans–maybe we’ll just pass out candy and watch a movie at home. Are you dressing up?

Hello trying new supplements for David to try to boost his immune health. I feel hopeful.

Hello new tile around the fireplace. it’s not quite done yet but you can see a bit of it in the pic above.

Hello thinking about praying for friends who are healing from surgeries and struggling with illness. Sometimes life is heavy.

Hello to you. It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found.

What are you saying hello to this week?

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Brave Love

finding love, the meaning behind By October 23, 2017 6 Comments

Becoming a family isn’t what I thought it would be. I started out optimistic and naive–determined to be the perfect wife and mom. When difficulty came our way I tried to stay positive. I told myself we would figure it out–but we’d solve one problem and another would pop up. I’m not perfect and I never will be–no matter how hard I try. Our family is made of real people–each with our own likes and dislikes, our own quirks and preferences. We tried having it all together but it was too much work. Way too much work. So we decided to be real instead. It is scary and hard and SO MUCH BETTER than trying to be perfect.

Love requires bravery–there is no love without risk and vulnerability.

We’re crazy, but our crazy compliments each other.
We argue, we scream, we get angry, but we also fight to stay together.
We are stable, not because the path is easy, but because we hold onto each other tightly.
When walls build up, we break them down.
We make mistakes, we own our mistakes, we forgive each other.
We each bring strengths and weaknesses–we wouldn’t be us without them.
Each of us is part of the whole.
We are better together.
You are you, I am me.
You make me braver, I make you braver.
Love makes us brave.
Together is where we want to be.
We are a family and that won’t change–no matter what.
We love bravely and with honesty. This is the meaning behind the Brave Love ring.
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