hello trying something new!

hello monday By August 7, 2017 7 Comments

Hello friends! We are back from England and trying to get back in our rhythm–I always forget how long jet lag hangs on. We are getting there slowly but surely.

I am taking an online ‘abstract floral painting” class and it’s fun–and also stretching and frustrating and inspiring. Below is my first painting. I don’t hate it–so I figure that’s a good start!

It’s a brand new week, how about some hellos?

Hello trying to get my suitcase all the way unpacked so I can put it away.

Hello trying some new recipes and having fun setting the table. I feel inspired.

Hello registering David for HIGH SCHOOL Oh my gosh. David will be at a new school and I’m a little nervous. And also a little excited.

Hello getting ready to homeschool Matthias in the fall. He’s looking forward to it and so are we.

Hello breezy cool weather after a week of tropical heat. So unusual for the central coast of California.

Hello making a list of all the doctors David needs to see. I’ll be honest, it’s overwhelming.

Hello fresh plums and peaches from the grocery store that are sooooo yummy. I love this season!

Hello watching this series–so good!

Hello reading this book–full of good reminders.

Hello looking forward to time with my sisters this week. Hooray!

What are you saying hello to this week?

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All Is Well

the meaning behind the jewelry, thoughts By July 31, 2017 110 Comments
About 30 minutes after our plane took off for England, David started having rapid breathing. We gave him his inhaler–which helped a bit, but we watched him closely and worried throughout the 10 hour flight. After we landed we took him to the emergency room in London. It ends up he had pneumonia–thankfully we caught it early. Everyone at the hospital was wonderful. They sent us home with meds and within a day David was back to himself.
I am a worrier.
I worry about David’s health.
I worry about my boys’ safety.
I worry when I’m a passenger in a car.
I worry about what others think of me.
I worry if I give my boys enough love and attention.
I worry about my marriage.
I worry I’m letting people down.
And on and on and on.
And my worry never helps me or anyone else–not one single bit.

I wrote this poem on a walk in the English countryside and I wanted to share it with you–because maybe you’re a worrier like me. I hope it encourages you.


All Is Well

Stress and worry
Have helped me not
My joy they’ve taken
This moment forgot

My thoughts bundled up
In fear of unknowns
My mind distracted

My present disowned

Detached from what is
I guess what may be
I imagine the worst

Dark and doom I see

Instead of the light
That always surrounds me
I am safe and secure

God loves me profoundly

My path is before me
God planned every part
Before my first step

From the end to the start

Life’s mysteries to me
Are by God fully known
I am His child

He cares for His own

When sorrow takes hold
And the light seems so dim
His grace and love find me

My hope is in Him

When the pain of this world
Crowds in to oppress
My God gently holds me

And shows me His rest

My worries don’t help me
I’m beginning to find
They wreck and they ravage
I am free, I can breathe
Nothing can alter
The path I am walking

My God will not falter

Today I will practice
Letting go of control
I am held by God’s hand

All is well with my soul

I will learn to be still
And quiet the fear
Today is a gift

My God holds me near

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Hello Traveling

hello monday, Leonards take England By July 24, 2017 2 Comments


Hello eye opening

Hello sun shining

Hello arms stretching

Hello coffee brewing


Hello together being

Hello day planning

Hello directions mapping

Hello London exploring

Hello legs tiring


Hello jet lagging

Hello beauty seeing

Hello picture taking

Hello museum viewing

Hello crowds navigating

Hello scones and jam eating


Hello mind opening

Hello heart believing

Today is beautiful.

What are you saying hello to this week?

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hello home

hello monday By July 3, 2017 3 Comments

Steve and I had a three day trip to New York last week. The weather was great, we had productive meetings and we had fun too! But, of course, there is no place like home!

It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found. How about some hellos?

Hello perfect weather–which makes it so much easier to explore!  Hello World Trade Center and Occulus

Hello Dear Evan Hansen. Oh my GOSH it’s so good! I cried, I laughed, I left inspired. I can’t get the songs out of my head. So good!

Hello lots of coffee to fight the jet lag. Hello more coffee just because it’s so yum!

Hello eating way too much good food!

Hello New York! Sometimes I think NY likes to show off.

Hello getting lots of sad/hard news last week. My heart has been heavy for friends who are struggling. Sometimes life is so hard.

Hello welcoming lots of family this week. Yay!

Hello celebrating the 4th of July and David’s 15th birthday.

Hello reading this book–I love her perspective.

Hello watering all our plants every couple days–they get so thirsty!

Hello looking for a new Netflix series to watch. Any suggestions?

Hello to YOU! What are you saying hello to this week?

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Wisdom From David

david, hope, inspiration By June 30, 2017 66 Comments

David, fifteen years ago we held you in our arms and cried. You weren’t what we expected and we were grieving. I didn’t expect to have a baby with a syndrome, heart defect and only two fingers on his left hand.

I cried tears for me, what would my life look like now that I had a child with special needs?
I cried tears for you. What would your life look like as you navigate living with special needs?
From the moment I saw your sweet face I loved you. I was your mama and I would do whatever I could to protect and nurture you. But I worried about how other people would treat you. I wished you could run and play and be silly like other children.
I feel silly saying this now, but I wished I could change you.
I felt pity for you, I felt pity for me.
I didn’t know it then, but sweet David, you were born to do big things.
You are a world changer!
My pity has turned to pride.

My worries have subsided as I see you soak up life and give love to those around you.

Everyday you teach us how to live with well.
You have helped us stretch and grow our hearts to make room for more joy.
You have shown us what it looks like to love with your whole heart.
Now my wish is for you to be YOU.
You are one of a kind.
You are a light.
You inspire me.
Today, for your fifteenth birthday, I wrote down bits of wisdom you have taught me.
What follows is how you live, how you love.

Happy birthday, my love! I’m so incredibly thankful you’re my son.

***

Wisdom From David

Come over
Settle in
Sit down

Snuggle up

Let yourself relax
Let yourself enjoy
Let yourself let go

Let yourself be loved

Make friends
Make music
Make messes

Make memories

With open hearts
With honesty
With happiness

With your hand in mine

Let’s dream
Let’s explore
Let’s learn

Let’s be brave

Today holds newness
Today holds adventure
Today holds beauty

Today hold hope

We are us
We are you and me
We are each other

We are family

Slow down
Breathe deeply
Be quiet

Let your heart speak

Listen closely
Feel your feelings
Think outside the box

See with new eyes

Forgive
Forget
Let your heart

Be free

All is right
All is known
All is safe

All is well

No shame
No fear
No hiding

No worry

You are precious
You are seen
You are loved
Be grateful
Be curious
Be gentle

Be you

One of a kind
Three words (I love you)

Forever, for always

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hello growing up

hello monday By June 26, 2017 2 Comments

Hello friends! We had a lovely weekend with the perfect mix of time outdoors, time with friends and time relaxing. Yesterday we had lunch with our little friend Bella {and her amazing parents}. I adore this pic of her and Matthias! It seems like yesterday Matthias was that little. I love watching him grow up and love on little ones–the way people loved on him.

It’s a brand new week, how about some hellos?

Hello Matthias and Bella. So much love!

Hello slow days of summer and staying in our PJs until noon.

Hello July right around the corner.

Hello getting ready for David’s 15 birthday! {15??!}

Hello watching this show. It’s sweet and funny. Have you seen it?

Hello reading Dr. Seuss with David. He loves it!

Hello listening to this audio book. She inspires me.

Hello working on some new pieces of jewelry to share with you. So fun–my favorite thing!

Hello loving this new shampoo and conditioner–not cheap but so hydrating for my curls!

Hello drooling over the amazing baskets in this shop. Gorgeous, right?

Hello eating endless amounts of m&m’s and then wishing I didn’t. But they’re so yum!

Hello listening to all the albums from high school and college. They bring back so many memories–Madonna, George Michael, Police, Toad the Wet Sprocket.

Hello saying I’m sorry a lot lately. I get grumpy with the boys and then have to apologize. Summer brings more time together and sometimes more grumpiness.

Hello to you! It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found, What are you saying hello to this week?

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cut off jeans, cut off jacket

what I'm wearing By June 22, 2017 8 Comments

Last week I popped into one of my favorite thrift stores and everywhere I turned was something amazing. The thrifting gods were smiling. I sifted quickly through a rack of clothing and came across the MOST awesome 80’s leather jacket. It was totally radical {if you’re an 80s kid, you’ll get the joke–if not, you think I’m a nerd–which I am.}

So I fell in love with this jacket. it had huge shoulder pads and ridiculously puffy sleeves. It looked a lot like this…

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I bought it for $4, brought it home and immediately cut out the shoulder pads and cut off the sleeves. And I love it! I feel like Cindy in Can’t Buy Me Love. I love that movie.

I didn’t know I needed a short sleeve leather jacket. So glad it found me.

I cut the hem off these Levi’s too–most of my alterations are done with scissors.

These sandals took some breaking in–but now they are so comfortable!

Outfit details: Leather jacket, thrifted. Levi’s, {I cut these off too}, Amazon. Tank, Old Navy. Sandals, Frye. North Star Necklace, My Shop. Boho Wallet, My shop.

What’s your favorite 80’s movie?

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Hello stuff of summer!

hello monday By June 19, 2017 2 Comments

Summer is officially here–I mean, I don’t think the calendar is calling it summer yet, but the boys are out of school so it’s official! It’s like the weather got the memo and suddenly got much warmer. We’re moving slow in the mornings and staying up past our bedtimes. We’re outdoors more and making time for ice cream. It’s summer–hooray! How about some hellos?

Hello AMAZING popsicle painting my sister Chrissie created. Isn’t it incredible? I love it. I screams SUMMER!

Hello eating breakfast outside. It feels so fancy and fun–even though it’s just three feet from where we usually eat breakfast.

Hello long days. It’s not getting dark until 9pm–I love it.

Hello celebrating Father’s Day. I’m feeling thankful for my dad and my husband who is an amazing dad.

Hello reading and reading. I have three or four books going right now. This one is SOOOO GOOOOD!

Hello making french toast casserole. It was delicious–and everyone got hot french toast at the same time. Yum.

Hello watering the plants more often.

Hello making time to write and sketch and think and write some more.

Hello to you! It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found. What are you saying hello to this week?

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You’re The One

father's day, steve By June 13, 2017 31 Comments

A few nights ago, I had a very dark dream. I dreamed there were a group of middle school boys picking on a young boy. They were carrying him by the arms and legs. As we drove by them, one of boys started putting a plastic bag over the head of the young boy. Steve pulled over the car as quickly as he could and ran toward the crowd of boys. I woke up shaking and couldn’t fall back asleep.  I had so many thoughts running through my head–but the most important was this–if we were ever in a situation like the one in my dream, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, Steve would jump in to help the young boy.

It was the middle of the night and I was wide awake, so I wrote down these words…

***

When you asked me out on our first date, I wasn’t sure. But soon I had no doubt; you are the one.
You are the one I want by my side, for my whole life.

When I wanted to start a little jewelry business, you are the one who said, ‘Yes! Go for it. You can do it.’  You are the one who saw the vision of what it could be. You are the one who spends countless hours dreaming, working, inventing, reimagining and building our business.

When our boys were little, you are the one who could cuddle them for hours on end. You are the one who would take an afternoon nap with them on your chest. You are the one who was first to comfort a scrapped knee or bruised elbow.

When we disagreed with David’s surgeon, you are the one who said, “We’ll get a second opinion. We’ll fight for what is best for David.” You are the one who will go to any length to protect our boys.

When we saw one of our vendors mistreating an employee, you are the one who stepped in. You were the one who said ‘No, I won’t stand for this.’ and ended the relationship.

When we were on vacation and saw a man mercilessly beating up another man, you are the one who immediately intervened. You are the one who began yelling and running to break it up. While everyone else stood around watching, you are the one who didn’t hesitate to fight for the one in need.

When Matthias has thoughts, hurts, dreams, ideas, you are the one who listens and affirms and encourages and builds him up. You are the one he looks to for support and boundaries. You are the one who has helped shape him into a confident thirteen year old ready to take on the world.

You are the one who took up cycling again after twenty years and excelled. You are the one who joined Gymnazo and soon became one of the strongest and fastest. You are the one who took up guitar lessons and acting lessons. You are the one who bravely steps into new things.

You are the one who pursued a doctorate–connecting deeply with your professors and cohort in a way that changed not only your own faith, but helped mold mine as well.

You are the one who went to Onsite and counseling, then The Meadows to heal your hurts and love yourself. You are the one who bravely engages to live fully and love with your whole heart.

You are the one who speaks honestly.
You are the one who tries new things.
You are the one who loves deeply.
You are the one who believes in big dreams.

You are the one who’s showing our boys what it looks like to be, not only a good man, but the best of men.

You are the one who will do whatever you want to do.
You are the one I want by my side forever and for always.
You are the one for me.

Happy Father’s Day, sweetheart. I am so glad you’re my partner in parenting, in business, in creativity, in dreaming big, in LIFE! I love you!!


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hello summer {sort of}

hello monday By June 12, 2017 3 Comments

David is DONE with school–hooray! He’s no longer an 8th grader {Boo! We absolutely adore the teacher he’s had for the last three years}. Matthias has a couple more days and then we are officially in summer mode.

How about some hellos for a new week?

Hello ready for slow mornings–it’s my favorite part of summer. Until around 11am when I get frustrated we’re still in pj’s and I feel like a slacker.

Hello walking and hiking and being outdoors. Feels so good!

Hello windy. Ugh–I don’t like the wind. Steve loves it–I think he’s crazy.

Hello date night this week. I can’t wait.

Hello loving this TED talk from Anne Lamott. It’s worth the 15 minutes.

Hello feeling incredibly relieved that our sweet pug, Louis, found his way back to us. The wind blew our side gate open and he went for a stroll. An incredibly kind stranger posted his pic on Facebook and one of our friends saw it. We are so thankful he is home safe and sound!!

Hello Wonder Woman. It’s sooooo good! We all loved it!

Hello Lord of the Rings marathon. The boys idea–not mine. I’m trying to be a good sport.

I haven’t been sure about the off-the-shoulder style, but this jumpsuit has such rave reviews. Fingers crossed!

Hello celebrating David’s 8th grade graduation with friends and having such a fun evening!

Hello reading and loving this book.

Hello to you! It’s a brand new week with beauty to be found. What are you saying hello to this week?

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