I Held My Heart

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I took care of my body.
I ate healthy foods, I walked every day.
I found the right lipstick, I bought the perfect jeans.
“This is good.” I thought. But it wasn’t enough.
I held my heart and it was empty.

I got married, we had two amazing children.
I was a loving mother; firm and fun.
We made pancakes every morning and read stories before bed.
“This is good.” I thought. But it wasn’t enough.
I held my heart and it was empty.

I made a cozy, beautiful home.
I saved for a couch and throw pillows, I kept it tidy.
I invited friends over for dinner and we talked late into the night.
“This is good.” I thought. But it wasn’t enough.
I held my heart and it was empty.

I started a handmade business.
I created jewelry, people wore it.
I wrote words, people read them.
“This is good.” I thought. But it wasn’t enough.
I held my heart and it was empty.

I went to church every Sunday.
I read my bible and prayed consistently.
I tried to love others. I tried to be spiritual.
“This is good.” I thought. But it wasn’t enough.
I held my heart and it was empty.

I broke down.
I sat alone in a quiet corner while tears fell.
In my desperation I called out to the God of the Universe.
“I’ve done all these things but my heart is empty. I need you.”
“You are good. “He said, “You are enough.”
Then he whispered, “All you need, I have given to you. Come to me empty-handed and open-hearted.”
He held my heart and it was full.

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20 comments

    1. It’s out of stock but will return in a month or so. The response was overwhelming. Thank you Amanda. xx

  1. Yes! Ever. Single. Word. I’m on this path knowing I’ll hear His voice. Thank you for showing me I’m not alone. There is hope. There is light.

  2. We share the same last name! And the same path to wholeness. You’ve captured the journey! Thank you for being courageous enough to share.

  3. That’s soooo beautiful. Reminds me of a song i wrote called “Come Thirsty” about how i filled my life with so many things.. would love to send the lyrics to you sometime. Blessings sweet lady!!

  4. Thank you Lisa for sharing your words. I’m currently going through a new season, and having much difficulty finding joy. I too am a believer in God, and I find myself questioning, and then feeling guilty for my thoughts. I think you are a beautiful person, with a beautiful soul. I pray the Lord bless you, and your beautiful family beyond your wildest dreams. I will not forget your words, “choose joy”. Much love to you.

  5. Such an honest and beautiful poem. I hear you. Have felt just as you have. Yes, we are not to be complete until we are with Him. Thank you for your words. ?

  6. I am absolutely mesmerized by your designs. I am strengthened by the love you have for your son, as I too have a son with “special abilities”.

    I am taken aback by this latest post, reading your bible and that you prayed it consistently.

    I seem to find those that love others as themselves have nothing to do with Christianity, rather it is about spirituality.

    I seem to find those that keep spewing the Bible are the most cruel and judgmental – wether it be based on religion, sexual orientation, disabilities. As a mom…

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