David, fifteen years ago we held you in our arms and cried. You weren’t what we expected and we were grieving. I didn’t expect to have a baby with a syndrome, heart defect and only two fingers on his left hand.
I cried tears for me, what would my life look like now that I had a child with special needs?
I cried tears for you. What would your life look like as you navigate living with special needs?
From the moment I saw your sweet face I loved you. I was your mama and I would do whatever I could to protect and nurture you. But I worried about how other people would treat you. I wished you could run and play and be silly like other children.
I feel silly saying this now, but I wished I could change you.
I felt pity for you, I felt pity for me.
I didn’t know it then, but sweet David, you were born to do big things.
You are a world changer!
My pity has turned to pride.
My worries have subsided as I see you soak up life and give love to those around you.
Everyday you teach us how to live with well.
You have helped us stretch and grow our hearts to make room for more joy.
You have shown us what it looks like to love with your whole heart.
Now my wish is for you to be YOU.
You are one of a kind.
You are a light.
You inspire me.
Today, for your fifteenth birthday, I wrote down bits of wisdom you have taught me.
What follows is how you live, how you love.
Happy birthday, my love! I’m so incredibly thankful you’re my son.
Let yourself relax
Let yourself enjoy
Let yourself let go
With open hearts
Today holds newness
Today holds adventure
Today holds beauty
We are us
We are you and me
We are each other
We are family
Feel your feelings
Think outside the box
Let your heart
All is right
All is known
All is safe
You are precious
You are seen
You are loved
One of a kind
Three words (I love you)